You have been here before, though you might not remember it.
It is a little complicated address for you to remember :)
And that is why I write here, to tell you things I want to tell you and yet do not want you to read them.
Yesterday I fasted for you. Though I never did when we were in relationship. Dont know what took over me.
This time it was not for my selfish gain, of you coming back.
But this was for you, to wish all good things that can happen and a very long life for you.
Since some days my pain had subsided, but yesterday it was back. It came gushing and washed over me with all the longing I kept suppressing.
Since morning feeling little better and optimistic again.
Oh, wow, you just gave me an idea to write in this fashion! Like the diary I used to maintain as a kid :) Damn, reading this I think everybody goes through a severe emotional setback in their lives, but honestly, want to ask you something, did you really fast with that intention? Of truly wishing the other person all the happiness?
ReplyDeleteAs this Blog is supposedly hidden from Public view I could write straight and clear. Therefore the expressions. And yes, here for a change I meant it to be for the other person's happiness.
ReplyDeletenote: I knew in a corner of my mind his ultimate happiness lies with me :)
ooooooooooh and that's why you wrote all your emotions so openly here? hehe...I did not know that this one's a private blog! :)
ReplyDeleteLove your confidence babe! haha...love the last line, totally! :D